We’re home! Actually, we have been home for the last week and a half, but I was so incredibly sick when we got home from France that I didn’t have the energy (and health) to post on social media, much less write a blog post. Besides the one time I had the stomach flu right before going into labor with Little Miss I don’t think I have ever been as sick as I was the past couple weeks. No, I wasn’t the puke-your-guts out kind of sick this time, but the cough-your-lungs-out and fall-asleep-at-4-in-the-afternoon kind of sick. And it’s been pretty bad. I even lost my appetite for two weeks! :O
I am thankful that I was at least feeling significantly better yesterday! Why yesterday, you ask? Because it was Little Miss’s 2nd Birthday!!!!! :O Can you believe it?! I hardly can, and I’m her own mother! Correct me if I’m wrong, but isn’t time flying faster and faster these days? I mean, I hardly feel old enough to be out of college, and here I celebrated my 4th anniversary this year, (marriage anniversary, that is), I have a 2 year old, and I’ve been in the freelance writing business for over 5 years already. *cue the hand-on-head fainting spells*
Since we had an inordinate amountnof treats while we were gone on our trip to France, we had a very laid back birthday for Little Miss. Just her requested dinner (soup!) and a little (healthy) birthday cake.
Now that I’m back home and feeling less like I’m staying an early death in the face, I’m finding that I’m facing a different sort of a struggle. I thought at first that it was just the “blah” feeling that comes normally with being sick and having to put some of your goals on the back burner, but now that I’m back to making Paleo birthday ales and blogging I am recognizing that it is something else much more sinister: a sensation of aimlessness.
Let me clarify for just a moment: I am not entirely aimless right now, veging in front of the TV binge watching Netflix (and not that there’s anything wrong with doing that from time to time….like when you’re lying in your sick bed hacking your lungs out…). I am, though, reeling a bit from not having the intense pressure and drive to get things done that I had before our trip. I hate to think it, but I often seem to thrive under pressure. Getting things done. Plowing ahead. And then don’t know what to do with myself when things finally slow down to a normal pace. (Think I should get accustomed to a “normal” pace during a vacation? Think again. Traveling with my family means keeping an insane schedule! Lol You’ll find out more about what I mean with the next catch-up travel post I do!)
I realized today I need a big goal to strive towards. Striving, after all, makes me feel alive. Makes me happy. Let’s me taste success made all the sweeter because of the fear of failure.
So, while getting my book published (and while my daughter drops her nap), I think I need to really beef up my marketing. Set a crazy sales goal and go all-out to meet it. (I love marketing, but find it rather scary at the same time, hence why it makes a good “big goal” for me.)
What part of your business or life do you find a little scary? What do you find excitingly challenging? Let me know in the comments below!
Life is nothing without challenges! Struggles let you know you are alive! So embrace them! Seek them out. And always make sure you are pursing your purpose. Otherwise you will find yourself asking why you are even alive.
What are you going to do today to make yourself feel alive and to move towards your ultimate goal? Let me know in the comments below! (I’m going to try to get through the day with peace in my home, while creatively getting all my writing work done – I’ll actually do this tomorrow since it’s after bedtime already tonight. 😉 )
Have a day full of brilliance and purpose!